🌻BREAKING PROTOCOL🌻
Our Journey of Sunflowers and Rainbows
By Angie Jennings
November 27, 2023
This past Thanksgiving week was FILLED with food, family, making music, missing my Nicole and my Ryan who were with their spouses and families but still keeping tabs on them via phone, text, and FaceTime, making new memories…..and walking through old memories of Rachel. We had gone up to see relatives in North Florida which was something Rachel loved doing. In fact, she wanted to move back so badly to where she spent time as a little girl. This particular time hit me so hard. I honestly didn’t want to leave and I would have preferred to sink backwards in time. My grief was getting darker and becoming a force to be reckoned with, accompanied by anxiety, symptoms of the aphasia I was miraculously healed of April 30 trying to return, doubt, fear, confusion, and anger. Honestly my plan for today was to drop Abbie off at school and then escape through sleep but my husband the Lord had other plans. I spent a good portion of the morning getting our title/tag transferred for the vehicle I was blessed with by my SISTER (in law), which I must say is as close as blood could get to being a biological sibling to me. Honestly, there is no doubt that she would probably do anything to protect our family and we are so grateful for that. But there was no way anyone could know the depths of despair I was going through by Sunday night—-thank you Jesus for two Armor Bearer Sisters in Christ that listened to me patiently and allowed me to be transparent. What they didn’t understand, they just prayed for. Late this evening as I was going through a particular date of photos on my cell phone I found something that felt like Jesus was allowing Rachel to wink and giggle at me through time! See, a few months ago a dear lady from Church gifted me a cute T-shirt with sunflowers and the words “Love like Jesus.” In my mind I “knew” I had seen it somewhere before but couldn’t place it. I even looked online for it! But guess what? I got my answer. From a photo in March 2022, I saw my Rachel with me in a nail salon where we were getting pedicures (probably for her March birthday) and guess what she was wearing?! Thank you GOD that Your timing is never late (it’s not early either) but You alone lift my burdens!
Habakkuk 2:3 LIVING
3 But these things I plan won’t happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow,[a] do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient! They will not be overdue a single day!
Rachel's Voice 