Hidden Love Letter

🌻BREAKING PROTOCOL🌻
-Our Journey of Sunflowers and Rainbows-
Volume 6
Originally written March 30, 2022

By: Angie Jennings

To a certain extent, I am a creature of habit. When I wake up, I really want my coffee. And in the afternoon, I really want my coffee. I try to keep Jeffrey as a priority though and offer him something at those times, especially if I am already making my special drink. So really this afternoon should have been unlike any other except the lingering sadness of one more “firsts“ during our time since our Rachel has gone to heaven.
Yesterday was Abigail‘s fourth birthday. Now don’t get me wrong, she had an absolute blast! Her Daddy, Fabio, went over the top to make sure that she had the best party ever this past Saturday, complete with little friends, and a mini party with her K3 class yesterday filled with pizza, cupcakes, princess decor, balloons, and goody bags. But during this party, my eyes met Fabio’s and I knew what he was thinking. As I gave him a hug he softly said what we were both thinking, “she should be here.” So I told him the truth. I told Fabio that I had prayed and asked God to allow Rachel to see her baby girl enjoying her birthday. No I don’t know where that falls into Scripture but I do know that the Word tells us that He will give us the desires of our hearts, within reason of course.
So what does this have to do with coffee? Well my friend you are not going to believe this and honestly had someone else told me, I’m not sure I would have believed it myself, but after 7 1/2 months of getting coffee and hot tea from the same Nespresso machine, it somehow inched a little farther forward I suppose. This afternoon I saw a piece of paper laying behind the coffee machine on the kitchen counter. It was a hand written note from my daughter Rachel. They were simple words really. It just said “I love you. “Of course there was also a smiley face.
Because Rachel‘s brain was deprived of oxygen during her delivery over 30 years ago, Rachel had trouble with some of her fine motor skills, particularly writing. No nothing was wrong with her IQ. In fact she was quite stubborn. At one point I even bought her a weighted pen that would help her write more easily but I honestly do not even know what she did with that thing. She preferred to use gel pens or even thin markers. I even suggested that she use a date stamp for the papers she marked while working as a kindergarten teachers assistant but no way! She would not have anything to do with that because she wanted to do things just like everyone else. So yes I knew whose handwriting was on the note but I still flipped it over to confirm and yes, I had written her name on it with the year. God knew I needed this and he knew when. More importantly, He knew four years ago that I would need it later on and I truly believe that is why He prompted Rachel to write that note and leave it where she did. I also believe that is why He prompted me to write the date on the back with her name. Also there is no doubt in my mind that over the years of visiting my grandmother as well as my parents, Rachel saw how I liked to hide a little note here and there for them to find after I had left. This note is now priceless to me! And to think that the King of Kings and Lord of Lords cared enough for me to orchestrate this!!!! It blows my mind as I smile at the sky!