Bittersweet

BREAKING PROTOCOL

-Our Journey of Sunflowers and Rainbows-

Volume 5

Originally written August 24, 2022
By: Angie Jennings

This is a memory photo. I am so very thankful for these. It is actually one of if not the very last photos I took with my Rachel before she entered the hospital and exited in heaven 35 days later. This past year has been a surreal journey through varying levels of horror, living while Rachel is gone. And I must admit that every day since my daughter left this earth I was dreading the anniversary of her passing. As a matter of fact, the night before I continue to stay awake as long as I possibly could in an effort to keep the next day from happening. It was like I thought “if I don’t fall asleep, that I won’t wake up to the anniversary.“ Quite the opposite. Time does continue to go on. This past weekend though while speaking at “Weekend of Hope“ at Marysville Assembly of God in Michigan about our journey and how we have not turned our backs on God, I was given such an excited peace. Do I miss Rachel? You had better believe it. What I turn back time if I could? That’s a loaded question, but the human part of me says “yes!“ Has anything good come from this? You had better believe it! Lives have been changed, beginning with ours, not just renewing our faith but actually redefining it. This was definitely not the way I planned it; however, I want a heart like God’s. I know that he desires people to spend eternity in heaven with him. We have all been granted eternal life; it’s just a matter of where we spend it.